心结

带上塑料眼睛，我太喜欢了。

这样的瘦瘦的中年单身男子，我太爱了。

“我都瘦称一道闪电了，当然必须是liberal了。”

很认真很认真的听完了他说的每个段子。形式非常优秀，每个主题都用block的形式呈现。不过好像没有怎么讲hashtag? 决定什么时候再来看一遍。哪天有空就他说的每个主题来讲讲我的感受。爱人的母亲也有抑郁症，治疗了好几年都没有太多好转，体重却增加了很多。

慕名找来三个麦克风来看，更喜欢那一场的表现形式多一点，奇怪但是却很和谐的把oneliner, standup跟ted talk结合到一起来了。

讲他的原生家庭，讲他的抑郁症，轻松带着一丝沉重。这个世界那么多忧患，首先要做多的应该就是跟自己和解吧。

从《三个麦克风》专场开始知道尼尔·布伦南，觉得形式挺特别，沉重悲伤中夹杂着轻松和戏谑。

这个新专场以为是他依次拿起背景板上的道具讲相关段子，没想到最后舞台上的灯一暗 ，侧边打来一束光，道具形成了一张脸的侧影，这个设计挺惊艳的，不过结尾气氛略微沉重，果真是创伤喜剧。

虽然没有让我爆笑，但很多视角都很细腻独特。另外好像今年出新专场的单口演员都多少提到了yq。

"Individually, these things are all manageable, you know?

But it’s…

In totality, that’s the hard part.

That’s where the depression comes in.

And I’ve tried so much stuff.

Like, so much.

Therapy, medication, ketamine.

…

I think I went too far…with that one.

Like, I think I hurt myself a little bit.

Yeah, but I guess it makes sense if you’re looking for a magic bullet,

occasionally you’re going to get shot.

But I just kept thinking like,

“Dude, how did you turn self-help into self-harm?”

I’ve been saying all night that something’s wrong with me.

And something is wrong with me.

I won’t show myself any kindness.

I won’t give myself any grace.

Like, I just grind and attack myself relentlessly like it’s my job.

I would love to stop.

I like to believe that my ways of being,

like my thoughts, my habits, my emotions, my beliefs…

I’d like to believe that they’re not defects.

I’d like to believe that the alchemy of a personality…

my spirit…it’s gotta be enough.

Please.

Let that be enough."

but also I've never been lonelier than a relationship i don't wanna be in. i don't want to reproduce. what's more meaningful?a bird in the cage or a bird that flies away every day and comes back just because they like being birds with u? because for a lot of us, we feel isolated in the whole life I'm not a natural.standup traumady shows 电击手表⌚️妈的我想哭

there's something wrong with me.i won't show myself any kindness.i won't give myself any grace.i just attack myself endlessly like it was my job.i would love to stop.

plz. let it be enough.

所有都是我想说的，所有都是我喜欢的。