看前半部分觉得很乱搞，看到最后才发现那些乱搞只是铺垫
brian不是不爱justin他的爱有目共睹，brian也不是不会爱，b为j做了很多很多，在j受伤时的绝望j放弃时的关心j出轨时的伤心心，还有他会不声不响的鼓励，默默无声的帮助，j住院他守了三天，j醒了他天天晚上去看望，j心理受到伤害他尽可能的帮助，j想放弃他为他买电脑，可他不曾对j说过，他一直带着染着justin血的围巾，他只对justin说过他希望他能忘记，其他的都没显示过他的痛苦，brian很爱justin，只是他不会表达，不会把自己的行动表现为语言，不会甜言蜜语，讨厌无意义的东西，他说justin如果想离开就离开，不是因为不在乎justin的去留，他是尊重justin，潜意识里不希望自己对j的帮助影响他的选择，Brian遵从自己的想法不代表他自私，他有自己的行为准则，用自己的方式做事，不邀功，因为那是他自己想做的，他不是自私，他会为了朋友放弃生意他为别人做任何事情都是出于自己的意愿对回报嗤之以鼻。他不想管的时候说话很难听可当别人需要他时他总给人惊喜。
    他和justin在舞池里表白时，互相约定可以一夜情，但是不能有第二次，不能接吻，要按时回家，实际上brian都遵守了，，他也试着为justin改变，为他过生日，只是brian不知道justin想要的是什么。其实justin在和brian在一起后要求的多了，想留住brian，开始两人没在一起也许只是希望brian看他一眼，但是愿望达成后反而要求更多，是因为彼此相爱吧，但是justin跟brian都不擅长讲话，都口是心非所以两人渐行渐远。毕竟brian比justin大12岁，brian不可能把自己的痛苦，不舍或者脆弱给一个小孩子看，对于brian，j是情人也是弟弟是孩子，brian只为两个人哭过，他爸爸一次justin两次，，，justin的出轨不但违背了当时的约定，甚至已经爱上了那个小提琴同学，brian不是一点都不在乎他试图让小提琴同学因为钱离开j，但是适得其反，j对ethen也不是出于爱，一方面是和brian的不愉快，心灵上的空虚，一方面是艺术上的吸引，相信他们还会复合，因为不是不爱不是不会爱
     em跟George虽然很幸福，但是看一半时就觉得他俩不会在一起，不是任何一方变心，那是什么肯定是死亡，果然看的下一集geroge就死了，，也是不是不爱也不是不会爱，尽管相爱可还是不能在一起。em很单纯也挺可爱的，其实他跟ted挺适合的希望能幸福
   mike同学果然越来越婆妈，而且显然他跟brian绝对不会发展成情人了，这倒真好，可是ben呢，，最后又是个伤心的结局吧，dibbie预言过brian会保护mike但是有一天brian也会伤害mike，对ben也是吧，虽然在一起很幸福，可ben最终给mike的还是伤害，不是不爱不是不会爱即使相爱还是不能在一起
    还有leda，其实开始出来时leda挺讨厌的，中间又变可爱点，最终她还是讨厌了，她是纯粹的不懂爱的一个人，也没有爱着的人，，，但就像em说的总有一天你喜欢的人会在一个不可思议的时间以你非常惊异的方式出现，，想mel和lnsay一样经历各种不合却还是幸福依旧。
   看这部剧最大的收获就是学会各种的爱，爱情无关乎性别，男男男女还是女女其实都是一样的，重要的不是你爱谁而是怎么去爱！
   也许更多人是被炫目的h吸引，可我还是觉得qaf吸引人的地方绝对是在剧情上！

第二遍了，还是很好看。这部是我看过的最好看的美剧了。看第二遍还是觉得有很多思考的地方，比如勇敢，比如什么爱才是真的爱情，比如如何对待朋友，对待家人，对待工作，人生态度，都对我有很大的触动。而Brian我觉得个方面都是一个榜样，除却表像，他真的很棒，不论是对爱人、朋友、亲人、同事。而且是那种真实的，而不是虚伪的道德典范！

Justin应该是剧里面最幸运的人了。在自己最美好的年纪遇见了B，他成熟，有着一双让人沦陷的眼睛，他花心，从来不跟同一个人约会，只谈性不说爱。他笑着对他说从此他有了两个儿子，他还说他要把他打造成最成功的同性恋。
刚刚看完第三季，多多少少已经可以预想到两人的结局。JT正在慢慢变得成熟，BB也已经向四十岁迈进。也许有一天他会将JT推开，不是因为不爱了，只是因为他觉得自己已经没有什么能给他了。他的英俊，他的成熟，他所有的爱。
每个人都会期盼自己身边有个BB，他会直截了当的告诉自己这种做法很幼稚，不应该这样，但是当有人欺负自己时他会第一时间挡在自己面前。
一直坚信不管将来发生了什么，BB会一直等着他的sunshine回来，爱情并不需要多海誓山盟，也不需要多壮烈，只要深爱过就会刻骨铭心。不管我走了多久，只要我回头的时候你还在，这就够了。

（去年参加wadsbb论坛剧情回顾活动乱涂了几笔，活动结束后顺便贴在这里）


第二季， 第14集

首播时间：2002年4月28号

剧情：
此集的剧情紧承上集发展， Justin不愿接受Brian的资助，宁可在Babylon做舞男赚取学费。开场便是几近全裸的Justin在吧台上舞动bubble butt，Brian在台下忍受众人奚落并极力为Justin辩白，满心苦涩溢于言表。次日清晨，Justin赖床跷课，Brian的忧心与不满开始显露。

这边厢一片阴云密布，那边厢， Emmett却欢欣鼓舞地做好了与George环游世界的准备。在一代艳星“Fetch Dixon”的告别party上，Justin疲态毕现，Brian提出借钱给Justin，再次被拒。Justin此刻剖析心迹，表明不愿接受Brian资助的原因：“You once told me that you want me to be the best homosexual it was possibly for me to be. Doesn't that include being a man（你曾经告诉过我想让我成为世界上最好的同性恋者，这不包括成为一个真正的男人吗）？”Brian的回答 “Sometimes a man has to learn to accept help（有时候一个男人必须学会去接受帮助）”引发Justin的思索。

Justin与Babylon老板Sap订下约定，以参加老板的私人party来换取周末休息恶补作业的机会。Brian得知后，半是吃醋半是忧心，无奈Justin主意已定。

就在这个晚上，命运的齿轮开始转动，将每个人带到了不同的方向。

Emmett和George坐在飞机一等舱里兴高采烈地展望美好新世界，不料乐极生悲，高空“大战”之际George心脏病发，猝然离世。抢救无效之后，Emmett木然坐在George身旁，陪伴爱人最后一程。此处Emmett的台词让人心酸：So, here we are, honey. Flying around somewhere between Heaven and Earth. Lost in the stars（我们现在在天空和大地间飞翔，迷失于星际之中）

Ded对Ben的态度依旧冷淡，Michael“投桃报李”，毫不掩饰对Deb和警官carl约会的不满。在与Deb发生激烈冲突之后，Michael来到Woody’s，在买醉的Ted和Brian处泄愤。回程的路上，Brian对Michael的吃醋心理进行分析，针针见血。Michael超速被拦，遂将对carl的不满发泄到执勤警官的身上，导致三人被捕。牢房里三人各抒己见，carl出现将三人释放，并与Michael小谈片刻。Michael认识到自己的问题，餐厅里向Deb道歉后母子重修旧好，同时Deb也首次向Ben释放善意。

不出Brian所料，Sap的party里充斥着毒品和性爱。Justin被迫吸食白粉，神志渐失。Sap趁势揩油，伙同其狐朋狗友意图迷奸Justin，关键时刻Justin奋力反抗，抬脚踹飞Sap，得以脱身，却也因此被炒。

大牢历险后的Brian回到家中，Justin守候已久，对Brian的晚归表示不满，Brian直言安抚后询问party状况，Justin隐去详情，放下自尊，向Brian寻求金援……


心得：
其实很怕写这种观影心得，大概太明白自己对Brian的偏爱，生怕会以罗生门的方式叙述，隐去Brian的所有过失。所幸挑中的是这一集，观点不会太过偏颇。事实上，这是全剧为数不多的几次让我能够对Justin击节赞叹，尤其是在他说“I’m trying to look after myself for once, instead of always letting you do it for me（我只是尝试着照顾自己一次，而不是每次都让你为我做）”的时候。毕竟你不能要求别人在养你的同时还尊重你，这既是成长的宣言，也是独立的尝试，也体现了在一段恋爱中要求平等关系的不断努力。然后自立的同时并不愚蠢，受挫之后，一个男人应该懂得在什么时候寻求帮助。

同时，本集的辅线也放在Michael和Deb的母子关系上。我从未喜欢过Michael，never have , never will。第一季中Deb说Michael有一颗Big heart，是我觉得本剧最大的讽刺之一，每每想到便付之冷笑。有一颗Big heart的人不会当面讽刺自己的母亲见到男人示好便贴上去，有一颗Big heart的人不会对自己最好的朋友说“他当然会离开你，谁不会”。昨日种种昨日死，我对Michael的厌恶却绝对延绵不绝。

本集最大的亮点，也最为让观者津津乐道的，莫过于最后BJ性爱情节的攻防转换了。鄙人第一次看到这个情节之时，目瞪口呆，惊到下巴险些没合上。然后就开始拼命吐槽导演和制片的疏忽懈怠，Brian第一次做bottom的戏，就算不搞得惊天动地，至少也象征性地让Justin拿一罐lube吧，这样直接就上，你插得进去吗？真的插得进去吗？不专业啊不专业，碎碎念一百遍。
体味再三之后，不得不说这场戏的意味深长。Justin的这一举动，与其说是生理上的需求，不如说是心理上的发泄。这个晚上受到的一切屈辱，一切惊慌，一切亟待修补的自尊，都通过情人的身体得到舒缓。Top也是一种控制力的体现，从今而后，两人关系里dominant的那一方，怕也发生了转变。Brian也彻底沦陷在Justin的手掌心里不得翻身了。

好吧，通往gay男心灵的道路经过直肠。

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There's got to be someone in this vast panorama of sweaty bodies. You're just dying to have reject you.--Emmett

It's just the essential elements of a healthy diet. Salt, saturated fat, alcohol.--Brian

There you have it, proof positive that making other people happy can cause nausea, severe cramps, even diarrhea.--Brian

You know how I feel about weddings. They're anticipated, meaningless rituals for heterosexuals.--Mel

Why shouldn't he get a little action? He's outside the required 400-mile limit for extra-marital quickies and anonymous assignations.--Emmett

There's never a right time to admit that you've failed.--Mikey

All protests are bullshit. I mean, a bunch of well-meaning do-gooders marching around carrying signs, chanting "hey, hey, ho, ho, homophobia's got to go". Give me a goddamn fucking break.--Brian


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I want you to hear what I have to say on an empty stomach. So maybe you'll digest it.--Deb

We faggots are a talented bunch. You gotta hand us that. And indestructible too. If AIDS and gay-bashers and crackpot Christians and fucking republicans can't destroy you, nothing can!--Deb

Yeah, it's fine to salivate over some bimbo with boobs the size of flotation devices stuffing a zucchini up her twat.but god forbid you should see some guy with pecs of death squatting on a road teepee. Oh, then you're instantly out on your ass. -- Ted

Look him straight in the eye, and tell him that even though the law permits it,you think what he did is unjustified and unconscionable.--Lindsay

You know, for someone who has enough disorders to merit your own classification in diagnostic and statistical manual, you are one of the most well adjusted and high functioning bastards I know. What's your secret?
A series of hopeless addictions, for one. And never seeing a shrink, for another.--Brian

Some things never change, huh?
-You're wrong, ma. Things change a lot. If you don't change with them, then you get left behind. Look at me, I'm right back in the same place I was before. And everybody else has moved on. I feel lost, ma.--M&Deb

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These characters have principles. When you have principles, you don't need orgasms.
-You have principles when you don't have orgasms. -- Ted &Brian

Why must your happiness always depend on someone else? First Brian, then David, Now back to Brian. If you came back here 'cause you thought Brian was missing you as bad as you were missing him. You fucked up big time. --Deb

What kind of mindless palliative is that for existential angst.--Ted 没什么药可以治疗自暴自弃

Before you turn around, you guys'll be our age. And you'll regret every night you didn't go out and grab a little life. -- Vic

Things go forward instead of backwards, right? And nothing stays the same. So don't trouble yourself. There's no reasons for you to be there with me, and there's no reason for me to expect you to be.

Things have changed, we've moved on and it's okay. No demands, no expectation, no regrets.--Mikey

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I'll be glad when pride's over. So we can all go back to being ashamed. -- Brian

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My dream is to one day know what my dream is.
-Dreaming's for people who like to sleep. I'd rather be awake and fucking. -- Brian

Life sucks, kid. Better you know it now than be disappointed later. -- Miley

I know what happened to you sucks, and I'm not gonna give you some pollyanna shit, about everything happens for a reason, or this was god's gift to make you strong. All you can do at a time like this is just hang on until the scenery changes. --Deb

What's easy besides complaining?

It ain't the end of the world, kid. Unless you want it to be.

Pornography happens to serve an important and profoundly humane service. --Ted

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Internet access: $38.00. Adult porn site membership: $29.95. Watching man jerk off from comfort of your own home: priceless. Masturbate the possibilities.

Morning Deb. Flop two, sinker and some suds.
-Two eggs, a doughnut and coffee for Mr. Wonderful. --Brian

Don't be pathetic. You made a commitment. Now you're going to go through with it.
-Yeah, a lot you know about making commitments.
Which is why I never do. -- B&M

You grab your pud and you pull!

You think you got everybody fooled, don't you? Well not me, honey. I've known you too long and regrettably too well. And no matter how hard you try to deny it. I can tell you care as much about him as he cares about you. Only you haven't got the big hairy cojones to say it. --Deb

We're queers. And if we're together. It's because we want to be, not because there's locks on our doors. So if I'm out late, just assume I'm doing exactly what I want to be doing: I'm fucking. And when I come home, I'll also be doing exactly what I want to do: coming home to you. --Brian

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Emmett's a star
-His dick's a star. He's just the life-support system. --B&M

As they say, out of adversity, comes knowledge. And I've learned to put my fears aside, and just find serenity in the chaos.
I think the secret is to stop regretting the past and fearing the future, and just live in the now.--Ben

If you've got one foot in tomorrow and one foot in yesterday, you'll piss on today.

He teaches you to focus on the smallest details. The breeze against your cheek, the way your shirt falls against your body, the feel of someone's hand on your back. Help you realize that right now, this moment is, it's all there is.--Ben

Well, that's what writers do, you know, we just cut ourselves open and bleed all over the page. --Ben

One of you could be positive. The reason you're not certainly isn't because you're always careful. I know goddamn well that isn't true. You're lucky. You're fucking lucky. So don't tell me you couldn't love somebody just because they're not as fortunate as you are. -- Deb打脸

Those who don't learn their lessons are condemned to repeat their courses.

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Youth should be savoured. -- Brian

Most of them are too busy chasing their hard-ons to listen to their heart. -- Deb

When we said good night, we also said goodbye. -- Emmett

Do you know how pathetic you are? One lousy fuck. Now you're carrying on like some lovesick fairy. You've got a lot to learn. Fags will say anything to get their dicks sucked or fuck a nice ass. Then it's on to the next. -- Justin

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What you need is something to keep your eyelids open.
You never know unless you try
Attaboy. Yeah.

Seems success is the ultimate aphrodisiac.

It's classic end-of-affair remorse. Made worse by the fact that you don't have anyone to replace him.

Whenever I come here, I feel a sense of calm, of inner peace. Knowing that I'm watched over, protected, safe.

I took viagra last night. It's been 18 hours and it won't go down. What am I gonna do?
-Have you tried soaking it?
-How about a cold shower?
-How about scaring it?
-What about something that would absolutely turn you off?
-That's a great idea. Why don't you two show him your tits?

God still loves you, no matter what.
-Yeah, like I give a shit what god thinks about me. He'd better be worried what I think about him. In all this cold, dead universe. We're the only ones that know he exists. Without us, he's nothing. -- Brian

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I still don't understand why you want to go to bed with an old guy like me, when there's all those beautiful young men out there.
-Well, for one thing, most of those beautiful young men are only interested in themselves. And for another, the sex is usually so fast and impersonal, you forget that you had it by the time you get home. -- Emmett

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Blaming the planets for your fuck-ups is just an excuse not to accept responsibility. -- Brian.

It wouldn't be right for you to stay. Brian Kinney sacrificing for others. Trapped in a hideous display of sentimentality. I'd lose all faith, all hope. What kind of gift is that?
I want you to fuck lots of beautiful guys. No apologies. No regrets. It's the best gift you could give me. Knowing you're happy. -- Lindsay

I think you're a selfish, heartless asshole. Keep up the good work. -- Brian

Btw: 这一集结尾的剪辑太棒了

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You know what's gonna happen? First we're gonna go back to your place. Then I'm gonna rip off your clothes. Then I'm gonna pin you to the mat like Wrestle Mania. That's just the exhibition match. For the main event, I'm gonna grab your legs and whip them over your head. And work my tongue down between your…
-My…what?
Well, I got us this far, now it's your turn.
-Okay my turn, I say let's get out of here and fuck. --Mikey&Ben

It's the first rule of gay etiquette: Never talk about your past fucks. Especially if one of your past fucks is your best friend's current fuck. -- Brian

When I find out that you and he… I just couldn't stop thinking…
-That…I knew him in a way you don't.
And he knows you in a way that I do.--Mikey&Ben

You had a life before I came along. So did I. Including people we've loved that we're still in love with. But that doesn't mean we can't love each other. -- Ben

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What kind of homosexual are you?
-The kind that fucks men. -- Brian

Fine, then, go ahead. But don't come crying to me when you succeed--Brian

This is it. Don't be nervous.
-If my heart rate was any lower, I'd be dead. --Brian

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Did I mention that I have an irrational but nevertheless quite intense fear of any physical activity that doesn't take place in bed? --Emmett

Is that "Not thanks, not tomorrow" or "No thanks, not ever"?

You're a hard act to follow.

Make mad passionate love at the top of your lungs.

You deserve a fabulous life, Em.
As fabulous as you.

Dug her high heels in and she's not budging.

The reason you don't have a boyfriend is because you don't want one. If you had one, it would challenge the well-established opinion you have of yourself, as a worthless sack of shit that nobody wants. Therefore, you go after guys you know will reject you, then you stand around here and bitch like a high school girl when in fact you've gotten exactly what you want, mainly…nothing.-- Brian

Value, principles, they're the first things to go when you want a cock

最后：whaaaaaaaaaaaaat……

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Knowing you guy's dysfunctional history, you'd put up with anything.
-Well, you'll be happy to know that even a glutton for punishment eventually gets his fill.

What we had for a few short months was more than most people have in a lifetime. -- Emmett

Rage…Hahahahahaha hilarious…

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He's managed to free himself from all the emotional baggage that the rest of us carry around.

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It's much better to give than to receive, except in bed. -- Emmett

The only thing that kept him going was his music.
No matter how shitty things get, I always have art. It's the one place I can go where I'll always be safe. --Justin

Can we please stay home, for one night? Just the two of us.
-You're too young to settle down.
-You're too old to fuck around.--Justin&Brian

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I'd ask you boys to stay but I know you need to toddle on back to your lackluster little lives. --Ted

It was just a spontaneous "I don't know how the hell it happened but there you are, doing it" sort of thing.--Lindsay

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The brain is the second sexiest organ. Which is not to say that the rest of you is not hot. --Emmett