蹩脚英语

看了15分钟才发现没有字幕，而且确实最后全部无字幕看下来基本没什么没听明白的，可能确实是broken English，所以说的比较简单，但是包括什么法语，西班牙语一概都能听个差不多还是挺佩服自己。。。

女主角属于越看越耐看型，演得很不错，惟妙惟肖，一个绝望的寻找爱情的女人，眼睛里暴露着一切。

男主角很可爱很可爱，眼神特别无辜，暴烂的英语，带个草帽，不过身材不错。另外手法值得学习，I just want to kiss you

电影很自然的流淌下来，完全不费力气。最后在两个人的天真中结束，没有结果，挺好，应该这样。

 
it's the first weekend i spend one hour and half to finish this movie which i left midway several weeks ago.
very romantic. i poured myself a glass of water and began to reminisce the acquaintance i've made with Chris.
the first time i saw him was in the librabry lounge. he asked me whether i'd like a cup of coffee, and i said chocolate. that's the way we found language partners in our university. i pasted up a little affiche on the outsidewall of the Friendship Shop looking for a language partner who speaks english and should be a native speaker. once he introduced himself as a french i was surprised. anyway he's european and spoke english. i was glad to have a friend. you know university life is not always full and most of my spare time was spent with those people. i was grateful that this university offered me such opportunity to enrich my experience with a variety of people, so i tried to make use of this resource.
hey,what's your name? kendra, i know it's hard to pronounce it in french...well,no no, it's alright. (and he tried to say it in french, it still souded queer.) we talked in agreement. and soon it's lanch time. i remember it should be a saturday or sunday, for Semmiss was not busy, but still with a number of students. he bought me a sandwich and i asked for a glass of juice, so the same with him. it's the first time i took a liking for the sandwiches in Semmiss. it's very cosy cafe; most foreign students especially europeans found it similiar to that at home. he said the cheese was good and also the beef, and taught me that if i found the the two peices of bread piling up together too thick, i couldn take off one and it still tastes good. i was interested in paris, and he told me paris women were in dominant. the only thing i found was that he's very thougtful with women and chivalrous. i spent more than half a day with him, and it's the first time i realized that i can talk with a frechman with fluent english.
i went to his dorm one night. he showed me his music and the movies he liked. 2046 was the one he mentioned. anyway as he sat so close to me and habitually put his hand on my thigh i felt uneasy. shortly i said i should go. i used to complain to him that i couldn't sleep well in the dormitry, so he said i could have his key and any time i came to get a sleep he could drop away. as i fell into an embarrassed silence not knowing how to refuse, we were both at pause.
after that i never went to his dorm again, but he still called me sometimes. i scarcely helped him in Chinese. and not after long he moved off campus and rented an apartment near Price Market. he invited me to his new apartment but i always had my excuses. he knew many things about women, even the strange relationship between women and the changing gravitational force of moon and also astrology.
 i still remember once we met by conincidence at the door of the library and he held me aside and said, he'd checked on the internet and knew that next year would be a difficult year for me. he told me to be careful. the fact proved that i really had a close shave with catastrophe during the next year. then we sat outside the library and chatted about something unmeaningful. that's a most beautiful autumn day. i truly deeply impressed by his expression of "i'd like to keep sunshine in my eyes".
later we met less and even null. his name was Christopher. i suggested that if he'd like "克里斯" was a cool Chinese name, so the other day he showed me his passport. it was "克里斯" on it. i smiled.
it's really a long time before we met again. when we first made acquaintance with each other, i used to run into him three times in a day, which he said was indeed lot or luck. the last time i saw him was the spring of the next year. i came back from a korean student's home and rode on the campus. outside the football field we saw each other. i knew i was kind of avoiding him for quite a long time, but soon i realised this was the last time we met. i was graduating and he's also moving somewhere else. he said maybe he's going to Xinjiang, where there're a lot of beautiful girls. we both laughed.
he worked with Phillips. and we lost contact after that. he didn't show up at my graduation ceremony with flowers.
later i left Peking...

"我们活着也许只是相互温暖，想尽一切办法只为逃避孤单.."
——郑钧《极乐世界》

看完《Broken English》（《蹩脚英语》），我觉得没有什么比这句歌词更适合作它的注释，精准到绝望。

我们害怕孤单，于是希望有人来爱我们；当年龄增长，这种可能似乎更小；谁没有尝过苦果，只要他/她曾经尝试；心中有屏障，是为了避免伤害；但是伤害和孤独 ，谁又比谁更可怕？。。
 
爱情可以驱逐孤独吗？也许这本身就是谬论。
 
“大多数人在一起只是为了避免孤单，但是有一些人希望有奇迹magic”
“这有错吗？”
“没有，只是奇迹不总是发生。”
 
法国绅士在酒吧对Nora这样说，这是所有人心中的战争吧；如果一切仍然镜花水月，你会妥协还是继续孤独寻找。
 
了解太难，信任太难，改变太难，承诺太难..这一切都让人举步维艰；这无关时间，Audrey结婚五年，仍然和丈夫隔阂难融；
 
Nora的母亲和Audrey的丈夫是世俗的追随者，幸福于他们是一种可以物化和形式化的物事；这样的世俗压力是强大的，如果我们每年婚庆，背后装点事业成功，人际和满，这样假装的幸福未必不会弄假成真；反正说到底，谁又见过真正的幸福呢？
 
Nora不是什么斗士，不是没想过屈服；只是有那么一点挑剔，或者根本就是运气不佳；35岁的女人追逐热情未免可笑，可是心中的种子，总会被上帝知道；你真的相信了，它总会蓦然成真。
 
这仍然是童话的安慰，但是我真的很欣慰结尾她安然满足的微笑。
 
Magic，相信不相信，全在自己；其实也没什么可怕，反正人生不过是场经历，没有结果，更没有回程。。
 
PS: 片尾曲“Broken English”是Mariane Faithfull的老歌，由Scratch Massive翻唱并制作为电声音乐；看歌词应该是反战的歌，选中它也许是歌名的缘故，但听到的时候也觉得意境契合。
 
Could have come through anytime,
Cold lonely, puritan
What are you fighting for ?
Its not my security.

Its just an old war,
Not even a cold war,
Dont say it in russian,
Dont say it in german.
Say it in broken english,
Say it in broken english.

Lose your father, your husband,
Your mother, your children.
What are you dying for ?
Its not my reality.

Its just an old war,
Not even a cold war,
Dont say it in russian,
Dont say it in german.
Say it in broken english,
Say it in broken english.

Ok, my weekly depression kicked in again. So, I watch "Broken English" for the second time.

已经忘了情节，但再看却在女主人公身上发现了自己的影子。

故事发生在纽约，三十来岁的女主人公总是感叹自己遇人不淑，厌倦了约会，对爱情失望。然后，在同事举办的派对上遇见了从巴黎来的男主人公。渡过了美好的一段时间，男人回了巴黎。她去巴黎寻他，却弄丢了电话号码，沮丧抑郁，然后自己劝说自己放下，即来之则安之，一个人游起了巴黎。在她坐地铁去机场的途中，男主人公恰巧也跑进同一节车厢。结尾是他拖着她出地铁去了街角的一家小酒吧，喝啤酒聊天。然后他问：“你愿意和我再喝一杯吗？” 她点点头，然后他问：“你知道那样的话你会误了飞机吗？” 她微笑说：“我知道。”

电影里的对话：

初见面时，再电梯里，他想要吻她，她躲开了。

她：“不，不要吻我。”

他：“为什么？”

她：“我说过了，不要。”

他：“为什么，我只是想吻你。”

她：“不，我很抱歉。”

他：“好吧，你不喜欢我。”

她：“不，只是我不想让你吻我而已。”

他：“为什么不？”

她：“我不知道。”

他：“我不明白，我们相处得很开心，你很美，我只不过是想吻你。”

她：“听着，我渡过了一个美好的夜晚，但我现在只想回家。”



在巴黎的酒吧，独坐的女主人公和一个陌生男人的对话：

陌生人：“大多数人约会只是为了避免孤单，但有些人希望有奇迹发生。我觉得你是属于后一类人。”

她：“这样有什么问题吗？”

陌生人：“哦，没有，只是奇迹不总是发生。”



我也已然厌倦了约会，我也不喜欢初见面时就和谁接吻，我希望有奇迹发生，但必须承认很多时候我约会只是为了避免孤单。可是问题的关键是，我还不是大龄女青年，才二十出头，可已然是这种心态，这就让整个局面显得更为可悲了。

Magic，其实是个有些荒谬的词语。不过是把小时候的童话翻个新，然后灌醉大人。结尾巴黎地铁里的偶遇能让爱里的人相信那是命中注定。但说实在的，在纽约这样一个诺大的城市，人流滚滚，我认识的人很有限，但时不时的也能偶遇上。事实是A遇见了B，但故事的构造全凭个人掌控。可以是上天注定我们要在一起；可以是见到了装看不见，躲之不及。一直想写这样一个短短的故事：在一个咖啡馆或是小酒吧，男遇见女，发现对方和自己简直是天造地设，她喜欢读他爱的那份报纸，她抽他爱抽的那个牌子的香烟，她也不爱在咖啡里加奶，和他一样，她也会放两块方糖。默默的观察一会儿后，他上前搭讪，聊天，发现他们政治，宗教信仰都不谋而合，最爱的作家是同一个，甚至住的公寓都只差一个街区的距离。喜不自禁的他约这女孩一块吃晚饭，可被对方平静的拒绝了。我觉得这就是现实的爱情，人人都只顾着自己脑海中故事的发展，不知道别人心中的承转曲折走的是完全相反的方向。

电影里的纽约场景我几乎都能识别出拍摄的地点。创造奇迹的人还没出现，但充满奇迹的城市与我同在。这样也是安慰。

脆弱，有什么关系？我们不过是普普通通的人而已。坦诚，对自己，对他人，是最最重要的。笑是因为开心，哭是因为难过，简简单单，如此而已。

安稳的睡眠，水和食物，如此而已。

然后巴黎会在心中发芽。

Nora妈妈安排的相亲男人对Nora说，你真的很nice。这在美国是一个半褒半贬的词；在纽约基本就是个贬义词了。

天真的Nora以为约会的演员喝醉时说的话是真的，还跟妈妈炫耀说她有了新男友，岂知他只是一夜风流而已（在纽约真的还有这么纯情的美国女生么）；在她失望地离开后，Nora好朋友的老公Mark说，Nora很好，就是不懂男人，男人是需要挑战的。Audrey说，你是说男人都喜欢像我这样的bitch么，Mark边笑边说是的。

几天前一个年纪大的同事问我modern dating是什么样。我觉得这就是modern dating，男人拼命想把女人灌醉，说些夸张的情话，然后上床； 如果还有好感，两个人再都玩些游戏，给彼此些挑战。

所以当Nora遇到非典型的Julian，她以为这不过是另一个想把我哄上床的家伙罢了。于是Julian想亲Nora的时候被她避开，她不明白为什么Julian不停说跟她在一起的时光很快乐，她对没有跟她上床的Julian留下来并和她共度一天白天的时光感到十分费解。在她焦虑症发作跟Julian发脾气后，以为Julian已经被吓跑了；第二天发现Julian却在台阶上等她---她马上开心的不得了。

那个在酒吧的Paul说的很好，你没什么问题Nora，你寻找的和别人不一样，但你得先找到自己才行。

Nora在地铁上远远看到Julian的时候，有一瞬间，我以为她决定放手了。虽然后来两人跑出地铁看的很过瘾，总觉得什么地方不对。或许期望主角的个性在一句话后就改变还是不太现实吧。 Nora还是一个过于nice的人。至于她和Julian是real love还是法国版的modern dating， 我就不得而知了。

P.S.,我觉得任何不受酒精催眠的白天发生的sex的场景都很美，看的时候真心为主角欢喜，比如这部电影，比如Meet Joe Black。

女猪脚见多了人，麻木了，kiss都麻木了，不想了，怕又是有始无终~
最后那么好的结局，虽不像真，但喜欢。
-so you like me?
-yes
-would you stay with me for another drink?
-nod
-but you know you're gonna miss your flight?
-微笑闭眼，以后怎样就怎样吧~