最后的直男

Two best friends – one straight, one bisexual/gay – hook up just before the straight guy gets married. It’s the start of a decade long affair where the guys meet for one night a year to have sex, catch up and let loose. However what should be a secret but simple bit of fun soon becomes something more complicated for both of them.

That’s the set-up for writer/director Mark Bessenger’s The Last Straight Man, which shows us five of the mens’trysts over a 12-year period. With the film coming to DVD (it’s out this week in both the US and UK), we took the opportunity to chat to Bessenger about his movie, how the actors dealt with the sex and nudity, and whether gay people have a double standard about ‘straight’ men having same sex affairs.

Where did the idea for The Last Straight Man come from?
I wish I could say it was autobiographical, but it actually sprang from the budget. I knew my next feature would have to keep costs down, so I began to wonder if I could set a movie in one location and keep it interesting for ninety minutes. From there, it just built itself up: a hotel suite…one night every year afforded the opportunity to let characters grow…two men…best friends…one straight and one gay would provide the drama…unrequited love and sexual curiosity would provide the conflict…and there it was.

Have you ever fallen for a straight friend yourself?
I’ve had some pretty hard crushes on some of my straight guy friends, but yes, there was one that I was on the verge of falling in love with. Thank goodness it never happened. He was married with kids and it would have been a disaster. But, if he had been gay, it would have been glorious. We got along so well.

How did the main actors, Mark Cirillo and Scott Sell, get involved?
Scott was the first actor cast. When I was writing the script, I happened to see Scott in an episode of a local web show from Detroit, Michigan. It was a horror series, and Scott was great and had the perfect look for the Cooper character. I contacted him on Facebook, struck up a conversation and when the script was completed, I sent it to him to see if there was any interest. He wanted to try out, and I video auditioned him. He did a great job, and that was that.

Another actor had initially been cast as Lewis, the gay guy, but a month before the start of production, he backed out—a director’s nightmare. Several other good actors were contacted, including some who had originally auditioned for the part, but they turned it down, mostly because of the nudity and sex. One turned it down because of the “dirty bottom” joke! Producer Benjamin Lutz suggested I auditioned Mark Cirillo. They were friends because they had both been in another movie together (The Men Next Door), and Mark had done comedy and nudity in that film. So we brought Mark in, and he was great, so the two leads were complete.

Is it true that you initially thought about having different actors playing the two main characters at each of their meetings? Why was that scrapped?
Yes. Originally, I thought it would be fun to have different actors play the same characters every time they met. Maybe even actors of diverse races. It would give me the opportunity to work with more good people and add an interesting spin to the film, but the producers discussed it with me, and we ultimately decided it was too gimmicky an idea. The audience would have to get acquainted with the characters anew each time which would make it harder to build upon their story arcs. Plus, each concurrent set of actors would have to work within ever-tightening parameters, as they could only perform within the boundaries set by the preceding actors, which wouldn’t be as much fun. So we scrapped the idea.

Due to the setup of showing us some of the men’s yearly meeting, there’s a fair amount of nudity and sexual situations. Was that difficult to handle on set? Were the actors concerned about it at first?
Mark Cirillo had done nudity in previous films so it wasn’t a big deal to him (although now that the movie is done, he has told me he’s amazed at how much skin and sex there is in it), and when we were recording the audio commentary for the DVD, Scott revealed that ‘those’ scenes had almost prevented him from accepting the role. Both actors were very brave, but I have to give special props to Scott, who basically flew across the country to meet a group of people he didn’t know and get comfortable enough around us to take off his clothes and show butt and peen.

We rehearsed the scenes (clothed) extensively before we began filming, so the actors were relaxed and familiar with each other’s bodies, so I think that made it easier for them. And while we shot with a small crew, it was still difficult to get people to work on the film, due to the fact that it was GAY sex and MALE nudity. Even the women on the shoot were, I was told, uncomfortable. But I am always about challenging boundaries, so I take that as a badge of honor. And everyone behaved professionally. Even the telling of dirty jokes on set was practically nonexistent.

How much of a challenge was writing the script? You want us to get to know these men, but you are seeing them in quite limited periods. Was it difficult to keep it natural but still fully flesh out the characters?
Not at all. It was probably one of the easiest scripts I’ve ever written. Once I knew who these two guys were, and what I wanted each annual reunion to be about, the creation of the script just flew. I believe once the outline was done, I wrote it in a week. There was a very minimal rewrite after I let a few friends read it.

The film deals with the complexities of sexuality. It can often be a tangled thing with many people having different ideas about how peoples’ sexuality works and how/whether it can change. As the movie deals with people whose sexuality is being challenged or changing (at least in their own minds), how did you ensure that felt real?
I think a person’s sexuality is pretty much set at a young age with fuzzy borders. When I was a kid, I knew I didn’t feel the same way about girls as I did about boys, but I still thought I would get married to a woman some day and have kids. This was the ‘Barbie Dream House’ fantasy, and I didn’t realize it was really a gay fantasy. In high school and college, I became convinced I was bisexual and even bedded several women in an attempt to prove it to myself, but it was never as satisfying as it was when I had sex with men. Finally, I decided to just admit the truth to myself and came out as gay. So, did my sexuality change? No. Just my own interpretation (or frantic attempt at labelings) of what I thought I was, not what I really was.

And I believe this is true for a lot of people. One ‘straight’ male friend and fuck buddy told me that he considered himself totally heterosexual…he just liked to suck dick once in a while. To me, that is not straight, but to HIM, it absolutely is. So was his sexuality changing? I don’t think so. I think he was bisexual with a preference for women, but if he had come to this realization, his sexuality wouldn’t change, just his interpretation of it. And I found this fascinating and tried to incorporate this into Cooper’s character to help give him that authenticity.



I was also interested in how the guys’ meetings are supposed to be about escape and fun for both of them, but it quickly becomes apparent that there’s more to it than that. Do you think people can have ‘friends with benefits’ relationships that don’t get more complicated?
I really don’t. Sex, even if it’s originally just for fun, implies a certain amount of intimacy between the people involved. Now, I’m talking about ongoing sexual relationship, not going to a bathhouse or a sex club. When we have sex, we are revealing ourselves to another person in many ways. We are exposing our bodies, our pleasures, our fetishes, our psyches…everything that makes us who we are. I don’t think you can expose those aspects of ourselves to each other and not have it emotionally take hold somewhere.

It’s often difficult to get gay-themed films made. How did you go about getting financing the film?
I wish I could say I sold my body for a night to an Arabian prince and raised the entire budget by morning, but in actuality, we approached distributors, friends and investors but no one wanted to bite. Even a couple of porn companies. My biggest surprise was how many ‘out and proud’ homosexual men were actually afraid to put money into a gay production because their families and friends might disapprove. We tried an IndieGoGo campaign that failed miserably. Ultimately, a production company came through for us after reading the script and thinking it was great. Who was I to disagree?

I’m often intrigued when watching movies in which married men have an affair with another guy, whether the ‘cheating’ character would seem as sympathetic if he was having an affair with a woman. Do you think that’s true and that perhaps gay-themed cinema has a bit of a double-standard on that issue?
It is a double-standard, because cheating on a committed partner IS cheating. But I think we are more apt to forgive a married man sleeping with a gay man because men cheat to fulfill something they’re not getting in their normal relationships. If he’s having hetero sex at home and seeks out other hetero sex, it’s harder to forgive, because he’s looking for more of what he’s already getting. But if a married man is seeking out gay sex, we believe (or often WANT to believe) that it’s because he’s searching for something more than just sex. He’s looking to fulfill some part of his makeup that his wife, or any woman for that matter, isn’t satisfying. And so he finds it with other men. For a lot of gay men, we understand that search, since so many of us have experienced it ourselves, and so, we’re more willing to forgive that transgression. But if we were to see a movie about a married gay couple in a committed relationship and one of them cheats on his spouse with another gay man, I don’t think it would be as well-received.

The film seems to have had a great reaction at film festivals. Are you pleased with how audiences have reacted to the movie?
Yes. I was surprised at how few GLBT festivals in the U.S. wouldn’t take the film. When you’re rejected, you don’t get an explanation. But I was always told that it could be for any reason: too long of a running time, not funny enough, a festival programmer was feeling particularly unattractive that day and didn’t want to book a film where someone else found love…anything. But I always had a feeling the sexual frankness of the film scared some of them off. Even GLBT fests in the Bible Belt can be pretty conservative.

Are you a fan of gay-themed cinema yourself? What are some of your favourites?
Yes, I love gay cinema. I love movies in general, but gay cinema feels like it speaks more to me than other genres (except horror, but that’s an essay in itself) because it’s easier to see myself on the screen. I could name several films, but I’m going to restrict myself to two, both by the same director: Joseph Graham. This guy is such a good filmmaker, it hurts. His first film, Strapped, is a character study of people living in an apartment building as they encounter a male escort who has just had a client and cannot find the exit. After working his way through the literal and figurative maze-like hallways, he learns something about himself. It’s a beautiful piece of work. Now, Joe has a new film coming out called Beautiful Something. He’s putting the finishing touches on it right now. He graciously asked me to watch it…and it’s simply brilliant. It’s about our relationship with art and how that effects all aspects of our lives. It’s gorgeous, sexy, amazingly directed and the acting is devastatingly wonderful. Keep an eye out for that one. It’s flat-out my favorite gay film to date.

Are you working on anything new. Is there anything you can tell us about it?
Oh yes, things have been very busy at the Bessenger film factory. Currently, an older feature I directed and was thought lost has been rediscovered. It’s called Rhapsody and is available for streaming and download on amazon.com, or for purchase on Blu-ray on eBay. It was my first gay feature, shot in Chicago in 1994. When it was found, we remastered the footage, re-scored the music and re-edited the picture. There were a LOT of montages. A LOT, lol. Anyway, it’s recently been made available.

The very first feature film I ever directed, a horror/comedy/action/martial arts film called Ninja Zombie may be finally seeing the light of day next year. I was told it was too ‘mean-spirited’ by a distributor and so let it collect dust in my garage until recently someone came calling for it. Look for that one early in 2016.

And currently, I am in the middle of production on a new project called Confession. It’s a 16-scene anthology made up of gay male monologues in which each character confesses a secret to someone; sometimes a friend, sometimes directly to us. Each piece differs from the rest in tone or genre. One is a comedy, one is horror, one is romantic, one is disturbing, a few are erotic, there is a concert film, dancing and puppets; some are dark, some are light…I hope all are entertaining. And yes, there’s sex and nudity, lol.

We should finish post by the end of April and will be making the film festival circuit this year while seeking distribution.

I hope these films will appeal to ‘our’ audience, and that your readers will seek them out and enjoy them!

  2015年圣诞节，我在东德一个安静的小镇上完成了【最后的直男】的翻译。一天都窝在宿舍里没有出门，只知道凌晨下了场淅淅沥沥的小雨，商店超市都关着。这个德国人心目中最重要的节日对我这样的异乡人来说反而是倍感孤独无聊的时刻，所以，还不如老老实实呆在房里，喝一口茶，写一行字。
  几周前，看完【Please Like Me】心血来潮在微博上私信了QAF中文站的主页君，希望可以加入字幕组为LGBT电影做一点贡献。由于本身就在Fix字幕组翻译美剧的经历，没多久就收到了主页的回复。三两句的交谈之后，就拿到了【最后的直男】的生肉，权当是一份实习作品了。
  在这里要先提一句，由于手头的英语字幕文件是机译的产物，几乎没有一句话是完整的，因此也给翻译造成了很大的困难。而OACFan字幕组此前就有这部作品的熟肉放出，在翻译过程中此版本给了我很大的帮助。特此感谢。
  老实说，对于一部电影来讲，这样的标题和海报是相当粗制滥造的敷衍。文件传过来的时候，脑子里全是大写的浮夸。这股浮夸劲直到电影开始一段时间后才得以收敛起来。电影一开始是库伯婚前的单身派对，一开场就是一个袒胸露乳的脱衣舞娘在一群男人间跳舞。这一幕更是让我默默地在心中打下了“烂片”的评价（即使是自己翻译的作品），然而庆幸的是，故事很争气，一路从低估慢慢的爬到了顶端。
  影片展现了五次库伯和路易斯相会的情景，第一次是那场单身派对后，第二次是四年后，然后是第六年，第九年和很久以后。他们在第一次发生关系之后，就在彼此“心上播下了种子，一颗在内心深处燃烧着的种子”（影片中引用文学作品的一段话），此后每年的同一天，他们相约在同一个酒店的同一个房间见面（除了第五年库伯爽约那一次），影片选取了其中的四次，向我们铺开他们的内心世界。
  在翻译的时候，我发现影片中有很多前后呼应的地方。比如第五年，路易斯讲到自己有一个漂亮的弟弟，所以大家看到他的时候只会说他是”聪明的那个“，在第九年的相会时，他问库伯为什么只和他一个男人发生关系，外面总有那么几个比他好看的，库伯回答”也许我更喜欢聪明的“；以及第五年库伯向路易斯提到自己父亲的突然离世，在第九年库伯表白时路易斯正是用此来拒绝了他的爱。从这些微小的细节里，能够感受到他们对彼此的爱意。那是一种很隐秘的感觉，有些话你自己说了也没往心里去，但是若干年后他还能跟你提起，这对于一段感情来说，也算是弥足珍贵的了。
  影片中还有三处比较煽情的段落。一次是第五年，小库和路易斯在阳台上聊到接吻的话题，路易斯提到了他们之间的“火花”；一次还是那一年，他们跳完舞提到路易斯的祖母的时候；还有一次是第九年，小库承认自己觉得和路易斯有“火花”（这也是一个呼应）。这三处，在翻译的时候是最令我感慨和动容的。还有那句我认为是全局最有分量的话：You can't find love in a locked room. You can read about life, or you can live it. 我将它翻译成：你在锁着的房间里是找不到爱情的。要么旁观别人的人生，要么自己潇洒地活着。
  随着时间的推移，如果说路易斯是在一步步走向理性和成熟，那么库伯则是在一点点陷入沉沦。借着三个问题这个游戏，两人的情感状态也被逐一呈现出来。路易斯从一开始的暗恋，到最后为了小库的家庭捏造了一个莫须有的男友，一边背负着孤独和痛苦，一边爱着一年只见一次的枕边人；而库伯从发生关系的那一夜起，就陷入了对路易斯的爱的恐慌之中。一边是自己的家庭和生活，一边是自己的幻想乡，到第九年他向路易斯袒露心迹的时候，也是他梦醒的时候。
  全剧每一次的相会，都伴着路易斯读一本书的情节，也伴着他将书页撕掉的场景。书中的内容是路易斯内心所向的隐喻，而撕书的动作则是对于现实的妥协和无奈。至今仍让我不能释怀的，是第九年库伯离开时路易斯那个心碎的眼神，那是一种满怀不甘的妥协，因为他知道，他期待很久的那一份感情最终还是由他亲手埋藏了。
  看见影片的评论里提到，这是小成本电影的一个典范。诚然，就场景来说，除了最后一幕在野外，近两个小时的剧情几乎都是在同一个房间拍摄完成的。道具，灯光也极其简单朴素，配乐也还算走心，虽然有几处音乐配得还挺莫名其妙的。一部小成本电影能够达到这个效果和思想深度，确实可以算是够本的了。
  此外，电影在刻画人物上存在一处硬伤，即人物的感情转变。好几个场景里原本因为矛盾和分歧沉默的两个人，下一秒突然就画风一变，气氛又活跃了起来。要是我身临其境估计尴尬症都要犯了。或许也只是我一个外行人的一点拙见吧。不得不承认的是，该片确实也算是某种程度上的情欲片了（笔者在翻译两处情节的时候可耻地硬了），露鸟的镜头也是看得人菊花一紧。结尾强行给个HE发点糖也是没话说，其实如果到第九年他们分开就结束，这部作品应该还会更有深度一点。不过谁又不希望他们最终可以有好的结局呢？归根到底，这还算是一部值得一看的好电影。

不算福利的福利
1.结尾鸣谢中内裤赞助商是 Andrew Chritian
2.片尾曲是Kevin Henry的【Next Year】，【老友记】S06E10

如果翻译过审，会在这里贴上下载地址，希望大家支持。

【你在锁着的房间里面是找不到爱情的，你可以阅读人生或者你也可以潇洒的活着，记住一定要快乐】


“最后的直男”——这是一部充满惊喜的电影。这是关于每年的一个夜晚，持续12年。我必须承认，在影片的前几分钟，我开始在心里给它默默打上了”烂片“的标签，渐渐看下去我开始懊恼了，故事在朝一个与我所期望的完全不同的方向发展。居然就感觉这电影或许还真的挺不错。。

12年之久的一夜情，似断背山一样的情节实则却加入更多思考，编剧兼导演对于台词很用心的处理，演员的无拘束演绎。最终就效果上来看是完全超出预期的走心！那这绝对称得上低成本电影的典范！

电影开始在库珀的单身派对，看到大房间里一群庆祝派对的汉子”享受“着雇佣脱衣舞娘的异国情调舞蹈，但也也注意到了，一个客人不参与其中。于是镜头偏重到另一位主角刘易斯。随后酒店套房刘易斯和库珀他们在收拾残局时开始谈论库珀结婚后的生活以及玩笑于双方性经历，刘易斯对库珀的祝福是“你的头发永远不会掉，你的屌会一直坚挺，你的儿子不会对你姐夫叫爸爸”。他们的语言，是糊涂又沉默男人作为一个物种早已经都掌握了的，为了保存刻板阳刚的形象的限制性代码，是用来掩盖任何一方可能的真实感受。
他们并不深知喝着几杯龙舌兰酒这么玩“三个问题”的游戏，这是很重要的线索，然后事情它就这么发生了。
当晚的交流中刘易斯坦言他是双性恋，他这样做是在回答三个问题之后。也是因为他讲述的那件难忘性事导致了之后事情第一次的发生，他们互相口交了。据库柏所说这不会再发生，但其实他们也意识到他们的关系注定是要围绕库珀婚姻情况发展了。于是两人同意安排一年一次一夜情，让它在接下一个十二年的同一天（库珀结婚纪念日的前一天）上演着，花样翻新，愈演愈烈。

这十二年的十一次（有一次库珀没有能赴约）中，导演重点展示了四个难忘的夜晚，描绘了两人的成长和他们的友谊的变化。伴随他们成熟和年龄的增长，刘易斯成为了一个写风花雪月文字的作家，而库珀一直是粗糙的劳工。第四年库珀如愿以偿的成为了一个父亲，而刘易斯仍然是一个孤独的一人生活，鲜有感情交往对象。这几年间似乎是有一定的规则般，不要接吻，不能刘易斯作Top。他们会在每年的这一天带着酒，雪茄，避孕套和润滑油来同一个酒店的同一间套房。
第四年刘易斯向库珀承认自己是同性恋，第一次相拥慢舞后他们盘坐地上，他向库珀讲述了祖母的帽子和书的故事，故事的最后祖母在去世前把她所有的帽子都烧掉了，只在她梳妆台上粘着一张她拿着她最爱的那本书的照片，他说她看起来很悲伤。在那张照片背面写着：你在锁着的房间里面是找不到爱情的，你可以阅读人生或者你也可以潇洒的活着，记住一定要快乐。
那晚刘易斯在对嘴饮酒的游戏中得到了四年来的第一个吻和算得上尴尬的初次Top体验。其中穿插了库珀作为一个已婚男人的牢骚，他说爱他的妻子，也由衷的为即将降生的孩子而心生喜悦，只是抱怨但她并不能他称作另一半，抱怨她很少和他有一种感觉，这一切没有达到他婚前对于灵魂伴侣的预期。


这五个夜晚（包括结婚前的那次），一场场的彻夜交流中可以看到两个男人一起度过的情感状态和他们的关系的变化。性永远是一个复杂的主题，在这部电影中你看到的是如此的真实。这是作为电影提出双性恋者却只看到他们的行为对他们的同性恋欲望的疑问。刘易斯说”是我太了解你“。事实上，正如库珀一直所说的，他是直男，他是无法想象和除刘易斯之外男人要怎么发生关系，刘易斯也绝不是泄欲的工具，他将这归结是因为他们是彼此最好的朋友。他们之间不过是找些乐子，那些沉重的话题就留在真实的世界吧！
两人决定在同一个酒店秘密见面，是在要同一天晚上赶上他们各自日常生活的借口，但他们实际上也在这样的生活里进一步探索自己的性欲望。在过去的十二年中，通过友谊关系的变化带来的这一切的改变。有浪漫也有情色！
这部电影的美在于什么不必说。刘易斯和库珀是深深爱着，他们的非言语交流都意味深长。他们刻意的笑话总是失败的，因为每当他们接近他们的真实感情就会迫使一个或两个改变话题。

在八年的那晚，库珀面对和刘易斯的性关系时仍”就像建筑工人领工资一样兴奋“，而刘易斯却性致索然，原来是刘易斯说他走入了一段感情生活——交了男朋友。那晚欢交过后在床上他们又玩起了”三个问题“的游戏，但这过程进行并不愉快。刘易斯说：”因为我知道你与你父亲不一样，所以不管是不是你的灵魂伴侣，她们都是你的家人，她们爱你，而这比我们在一起更重要！“刘易斯并不是没有想过，也不是没有希望过库珀能选择和他在一起生活，他绝口不提，如今时过境迁，也该释然了！”人是会变的，我该变得不再那么需要你了。“

在这样一个视觉拼贴形式的电影中，刻意跳过几个的生活阶段事件，使男性的演变随着时间的推移持续发生。随着年龄增长和生活经验的积累，他们的爱情，亲情和对彼此的了解都翻天覆地的改变。
刘易斯意识到，他要成为更好的人和库珀的家庭的利益无关，做正确的事。这样的无私让刘易斯有一个讨人喜欢的性格。似乎他总是理智的，甚至你可能会有错觉，刘易斯是单方面遭受心痛和暗恋的。然而，太多的徘徊是有由库珀对于谁是他的家人的困扰和他发现真正的迟来的灵魂伴侣的迷茫。作为观众，他们在卧室里交流情感的过程中，你不能参与帮助，但你能感觉到他们内部的纠葛——他们都曾面临困境。

“最后的直男”是一个讲述快乐的电影，创作者认真对待故事，会为你留下很多潜在的主题处理，告诉你人表达自己的方式和应该怎样思考看待对方。而不知道如何表达真实感情的生活，必然是会造成一个长期和不可逆转的后果。

当初看片子的时候是在找QAC的另外一个翻译，后来看到片名和简介觉得很奇葩，以为是一部B级喜剧，就进来看了。结果有很大的惊喜。
先说剧情，一开始的单身派对让我下了一跳，也让很多人对这部片在心里默默打上了烂片的标志，然后经过前面十五分钟的铺垫之后，剧情的走向让人大跌眼镜。从两人第一次互相BK，路易斯教导库说“没有用到牙齿,不错”，到路易斯教导库如何用灌肠，这些都可以给直男们普及下同志的心理，还有性爱知识。
再说镜头，全片的场景除了最后的野餐是外景，其他的基本上都是在房间里面，这点也是这部电影加分的地方，一开始的时候我以为会有很多场景的跳跃，结果全片只有一个场景，两个演员，剧情主要靠对白来推动，非常了不起。
虽然各方面都不错，但估计片中的演员都不是同志，有些地方还是不够真实，例如库第一次被路易斯堆到，第一次进入的时候表情挺到位，跑去厕所到后来灌肠出来都没什么大问题。但第一次被进入后，库竟然可以马上就穿衣服健步如飞的走了，这点是最大的漏洞。
虽然库被进入后发现了自己另外一面从而达到另一个高潮，但第一次进入的不适并不会因为这样而消失的，之后走路还是会有些别扭，跟别说像库那样了。
另外一点就是服务员进来打扫，两人躲到房间里面BK，有很多人说这段夸张，因为太快了，但其实在这种情况下受到的刺激远比正常情况下大，也会更加兴奋，这也是为什么很多人喜欢野战的原因，因为刺激。而在随时有人进来的情况下，结束的时间的确会比以往大大缩短。只是两人的位置一看就知道偏高了，库对着的是路易斯的肚脐。不过鉴于只是剧情片不是GV，所以也无所谓。
关于最后的那里，很多人都以为路易斯说有男友那段是两人最后一次的一年之约，所以对最后两人的吻摸不着头脑。但如果算下，从库结婚前那晚也算起，分别是第四年，第五年，和第九年。而简介上面说了两人维持这种关系十二年。
当时在最后库离开时问了一句，“明年见？"
路易斯的回答是：“再说吧”
路易斯劝库回归家庭，自己也和巴尼开始约会，但他没有拒绝明年的邀约。毕竟是十年的感情，不是三言两语就能放下的，而最后的野餐之吻，也说明中间发生了很多事，导演只是将对人物心理状态转折最大的四个夜晚展现给我们。
而个人觉得最突兀的是库的角色塑造，估计是因为剧本设定所限，无法表达更深一层，显得库只是一个热爱性爱的人，到后来才慢慢审视自己的内心，发现爱上路易斯，这个心路历程很突兀，在意大利同志网剧《朱利奥和托马斯》里面，托马斯从开始到明白自己爱上朱利奥，整个过程是迷茫，不安，愤怒到崩溃最后接受，经历好几个阶段，这才是一个直男发现自己弯了的正确新路历程。然后是路易斯，他很伟大，角色塑造很成功，但从开始他勾引库BK，到循循善诱库接吻，到后来推倒库，这些铺垫都为他加了很多分，但到最后突然放弃，这个过程也跳跃很大。虽然这些心路历程也能说是在没有展现出来的那几年中，但对观众来说还是显得跳跃太大，一时间无法接受。
看到最后虽然算是一个HAPPY ENDDING，但不知道为什么总有一种说不出的忧伤。总的来说这部戏是我这些年来看过同志电影，令人惊喜的小成本制作，看的朋友别被前面五分钟吓到了，耐心看下去，你会越来越想看完的，快去看吧！